I should not have used this again..Louis taught me just few days ago and I couldn't avoid the tempting THING.I just used once.. I thought it won't be too much... But after it mixed the effect with the red wine..My night was so long and I was so so stupid to do it again..Whatever.. what have done is done.. no regret.. just don't want letting desire control me again..I am so so so strong with my willpower and shouldn't make mistake again...It supposed to be a sweet night... but I wasn't that enjoying much.The food was lovely including my favorite seafood.. I guess seafood is another reason.. Red wine, seafood and The THING are evil stuff accompanying with the French accent... Dying want to have...I just don't understand why does everything become so complicated to me all the timeall i want it the simple way...I was talking nonsense. any way..just eat and love and pray. It's life.......
